3 weeks 2 days

And of course I’ve gotta go through dates here real quick.

I am 3 weeks 2 days today. My weeks change on Mondays (woohoo! easy enough!)

The last baby I lost was at 8 weeks. That will be July 21st so long as everything goes smoothly.

Second trimester will begin on August 25th.

We should find out the sex of the baby between mid September and mid October.

Third trimester will begin on December 1st.

36 weeks is Groundhog Day.

 

Symptoms

I wanted to keep track of my symptoms too so I’ll go from what I remember so far and try to post from here on out every single day.

For the last 4 nights or so I’ve been getting sick. I don’t know when the cold ended and the morning sickness began. It hit hard tonight though. It’s definitely morning sickness tonight. I’ve been tired too. Drag-ass TIRED. It hits early and by early I mean like shortly after dinner. I used to go to bed around midnight lol

4 days in a row I had the runs every single morning. I know, TMI. But it’s still a symptom. Didn’t matter what I ate the night before.

My boobs haven’t been too terribly bad yet. They are a little tender here and there but nothing too exciting yet. Its still early though. Really early.

I don’t have to pee all the time yet either.

Oh and cramps! I have been having pretty good cramps. I was really sore around ovulation for a few days and then got a break and then just the last 2 or 3 days I have been cramping up again some.

Well I guess it’s time to quit smoking and no more beer for me!

 

Clomid cycle

My cycle began on May 25th. This makes me on CD 25 today. I took Clomid 50mg days 3-7. I did okay. I was a little moody. Nothing out of the ordinary for PMS. (My poor family!) I did pretty good with my temps up until about June 5th. Then we all got sick and the baby was up and it was nearly impossible to get a good temp. I missed 6 days of temps but we somehow BD every other day at least.

So I O’d somewhere between the 6th and the 11th. My temp on the 12th was high. 98.3 high. It hasn’t been that high since I think I conceived last year the baby we lost. Well for testing purposes, I decided to just go off of how many high temps I have and count out 10 or more high temps and then test. I made it to 7 lol. Then I got to thinking. My temps have NEVER jumped straight up to 98 anything immediately after O. They usually take a couple of days at least and climb some. So that would make me closer to 10 dpo than 7 lol

So I tested.

It was positive. There’s no mistaking it.

I went off of 9 dpo for my due date. It put me at March 2nd. I’m around 3 and a half weeks.

I will keep testing until my test line is better than my control line. Send me boy vibes, ladies!!! And PLEASE make sure you send me ONE BABY vibes!! I really hope it’s just one!

 

CD 1

will either be today or tomorrow depending on how things happen. *sigh*

And yet I knew it wouldn’t be my month.

I see something about March 7th though. Not sure entirely what. Maybe that is when I will O and conceive. I AM supposed to get my BFP in March. We’ll see if I’m right.

 

Jealousy, sadness, boredom.

Today, someone else gets to join the Due in October group. And it isn’t me. I still haven’t even completely stopped spotting yet. We can’t even give it a good healthy go yet, but soon. This is the month we try. This is our month. This is my month. I just have to be patient and think positive.

But damn I’m jealous. These two girls I hope to join… they both went through it. They had their AF visit. They had their sex marathons. They waited the long two weeks. They’ve both been trying longer than I have. They both deserve it more than I do. But I can’t help but be so incredibly painstakingly jealous. I want so badly to see those two lines and I want it to last longer than 7 or 8 weeks. I want to get that belly again and take pictures and shop for maternity clothes and worry about my weight and how hideous I’m going to look when the baby gets here and I’m left fat and milktating. I want my boobs to hurt so bad I just want to cut them off. I want morning sickness so bad I can’t keep anything down until the magical 12 week mark. I want ultrasounds and prenatal visits. I want those two lines tooooooooo

So I am sad. A little bit. But happy for these girls. It was their turn. It will be mine again. Soon enough.

And bored. Because hubby had a long work week and passed out 2 1/2 hours ago. He’s sleeping on the floor beside me in my big comfy recliner, wrapped up in his blanket, snoring the night away. He’s getting the sleep he needs so badly.

Until I get tired enough to pass out beside him because I’m too lazy to wake him up and drag him to bed with me, I get to surf CafeMom and the Ovusoft forums. I get to try and occupy myself with a quiet game of SimCity 3000 (yes I LOVE that game) and a good MSN chat with my best friend.

I may not post much until next month.

 

And then it hits me

Tonight as I sit here, completely involved in some birth stories on the board, it hit me.

It IS going to be soon. I can feel it. I hate to think it will be in March that I get that BFP and post it and then be wrong, but that’s what I feel. So we’ll see if I’m right. It’s February 1st in 40 minutes. One more month to see if I’m right. I’m getting downright anxious and excited!!! Even if I’m wrong. I’m anxious to see what happens!

 

Another psychic reading

I asked: “I was wondering a couple of things… how many children am I supposed to have? I’ve been told 5, but I plan on tying my tubes after the next baby which would bring us to 4 so I can’t help but wonder am I going to end up with twins?? Next question… will we have any boys? And last question… when am I supposed to conceive our next baby? I have a feeling it will be soon, but how soon? “

My answer:

“I see you with twins a boy and a girl you will get pregnant in the next 5 months I hope this helps GOD Bless”

I guess we’ll see what happens. This combined with my feeling that I’ll get my positive test in March and the other reading that said I would get my test in an M month… I don’t know what to make of all of it. On the one hand I would love for all of it to come true, but on the other hand I’m incredibly skeptical.

And what in the world would we do with twins? Let’s just hope we get set with a boy…

 

AF is here

Another cycle gone, more time wasted.

I have joined CafeMom. I met up with a self-proclaimed psychic and asked her how many kids she thought I would end up with. She gave me a number that was one more than I was thinking, so either my tubal I plan on getting will fail me down the road or I’ll give birth to twins next time around. I guess we’ll see?

In December when I got AF, I told myself I would just not think about it and I’d test in March. I don’t know why I thought up March. I could have thought up February, but March stood out in my mind. Even now that AF is here, March is still in my head. It’s all I can think about. I need to test in March. I’m not even bummed this time around that this wasn’t my month. I’m looking forward to next month, I’m looking FORWARD to TTC again, to testing in MARCH!

So I went back to my psychic friend on CafeMom. I told her that I felt a BFP coming soon and I had a month looming in my mind but I wanted to know if maybe I was just off my rocker or what.

She messaged me back and said March or May, it was an “M” month. I couldn’t believe my eyes. She could have said February or April but no, she said March.

So I guess we’ll see what happens in March! I am EXCITED to see what happens. Even if it’s a BFN and I go on the rest of the year and never see another BFP, just to make it to March and see if I’m right or not is exciting and interesting and I can’t wait!!

 

Spot is here

AF is knocking at the door.

I toldja it wasn’t my month. Onto the next!

 

Ew.

I didn’t know food aversions came with PMS but apparently they do.

I usually LOVE peppermint candy. Candy canes, altoids, mentos, etc. I had a peppermint candy cane today to help knock out some of this nausea and I swear it made things worse! I can’t even think about something minty right now without getting ready to hoark. WTF?!